STRESS, STRESS, STRESS

OMG. Seriously. Life the last few months has been the biggest drag. So...My lease in Austin is up at the end of March and Derek and I are moving into his parents rent house in Gladewater. Yeah. I've been doubting this decision for a long time now. Derek and I fight all the time. He has such a shitty attitude 24/7. He plays x-box all day and he is literally the laziest person I have ever met in my life. If I ask him a question or have something important to tell him he completely ignores me, yet if I don't look up from my mail to look at the cool sports replay I'm ignoring him. I'm so curious as to how all this is going to work out. I went to a psychic (I know don't judge, it was a fun, curious thing) but she told me my relationship is a matter of convience which seems sooooooo true sometimes. I'm clearly here to cook, clean, do the laundry, pay the bills, etc.

So to catch up I moved to NYC in August, it lasted all of 4 weeks and then my best friend and I had a falling out because we couldn't find an apartment. I think everyday how I should have just toughed it out and how depressed I am with how Derek treats me. I would be so estatic if he told me one day for no reason how much I mean or how much he appreciates all I do. I really feel like we are both wasting our time, I just don't see us ever getting married.

No that I'm back in Texas I'm considering going back to school. It is looking like it is going to take me 2 years though. Bummer, but hopefully well worth it once I graduate. I'm considering Radiology. I guess now is as good a time as any since I won't have to pay rent. I can totally tough out the next two years to finish school. Alright, gotta wrap it up. I'll try and get back on soon.